urn / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
I finally figured out a way to get u an urn mommy. I asked for one for christmas......:( Mommy i miss u so much. i hate hurting every single day of my life. I will feel this way for the rest of my life and it sucks. You were taken from me way to early and its not fair. I never woulda thought something like this would happen to me. Its the kinda thing that happens to other people....not me. You know? Close

i am almost happy  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
I wish you were here to see how good i am doing. I am working my ass off and more determined than ever. i am back in school though i am on summer vacation. i broke up with rob. brad n i have a nice place and i have a good job. I met a new guy that i am sooooo interrested in :) i hope he feels the same cuz i havent liked anyone this much since Aric :) i pray i dont get my feelings hurt.

I just wish so bad u were here! I am on vacation for a week and you could come hang out on my deck and look at the lake with me :( I just want you here so bad it makes my heart hurt. Why couldnt things have been different? I never in a million years growing up as a kid would have thought things would have ended up the way they have. Now i live my life knowing that you just never know whats in store. I live and love harder than ever. Close

moving / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
I miss you sooooooooooooo much mama. I just dont understand why u had to go! it really sucks! and hurts! and i dont think the pain will ever go away. I feel like i didnt do enough to help you. I feel like there was so much left unsaid. I feel like that last fight we had was the reason u started drinking again that last time. I feel like it was my fault. I regret not coming to see u more in the hospital

Anyways brad and i are moving back in together today. i hurt myself at work and dont know how i am sposed to get any moving done. i should be happy but i seem to be quite down today Close

song for mama  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up some times
On Sunday mornings saying I miss you
But i'm glad we talked through
All them wrongful things seperation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
Theres so much more left so say
If you were with me today face to face

Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“Miss you but I try not to cry”
As time goes by
And as soon as you reached a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And we were here next to you
It feels like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye bye bye bye bye bye) x3

Bye bye

And you never got a chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever Close

dropping by  / Maryln Burrows (aunt)

Hi Gena-- sure hope you know that we are thinking of you. I dont write in here much as it is always so sad when I do.  Just want to say I think of you often.  Do you know Mandi and Melissa have become good friends. I like that. She sure misses you. I will try to say hi to you more often. These sites are always so difficult to enter. Just hope you know we care. I miss your face.  Love always, Aunt Maryln

 

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almost three years  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
I cant believe its been almost three years! And i still cry, my heart still hurts, and i just want my mama back. I WANT MY MAMA BACK!! :( Close

Poem / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
This dreams not reality
An altered state of mentality
Interrupted by what seems inadequate oxygen
Pure suffocation
Bringing me back again
With every breath
To face a situation
of concealed realization
A rainbow bright fasad
Sense my desperation
Missing yet never quit perceiving
His rhyme or reason Close

Another xmas  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
Its just not the same. Sorry if i dont write as much anymore...but dealing with your death is just to real now. Close

thanksgiving / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
Miss you bunches mama!!! Close

Hi Mom  / Brad Hutchings (Son)
Hey.. I'm sorry I haven't been here in a long time.. I honestly don't like coming here.. It just hurts too much.. I know this sight was created to help people and to pay tribute to you and that is great.. But I always have a headache from crying when I leave this damn page.. I love you Mom.. and I miss you so much.. Will you tell grandma I love and miss her to... I just can't handle her page yet.. Close

going crazy?  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
am i mama, cuz really sometimes i feel like it. if ppl could only see whats really on the inside of me and not this fake persona i show. Anyways i love you, and miss you deeply everyday. I am glad u are finally happy and at peace. Close

Thinking of you.......  / Cheri (Sister-in-law)
I was just thinking of all of you tonight so I visted everyones website and said a quick hello in my own way. I remember our younger years when you more like a big sister to me than a sister-in-law. The times I spent at your house. The things we did together, shopping and movies. You were always so much fun to be with. I will never forget your laugh! It always started out a little shy, but grew louder as you let go. I will always have those memories, nothing will change that.

Special note to Melissa: You don't have to let go, or move on, or stop greiving. No one can tell you when the time is right for you to do those things. We will never let go of our loved ones that we miss so much, they will remain with us until we are together again some day. Go at your own pace. Eventually you will have days when you will feel an inner peace knowing that your mom is healthy, happy and watching over you. That will not completely take away the pain, but that moment of peace will help with the healing. I truly believe they watch over us and they only want the best for us. We can never be as happy as they are because they are in a much better place, but we can be happy knowing that they are in that better place and when the time is right, we will be there too. Until that time, we can learn to be happy here with the people we love all the while never fogetting the ones who are waiting patiently for us to join them when it is our time. Remember they do not have the same time frame we do. To them 100 years seems like only a minute. I miss my son every second of every day, but I feel blessed knowing he is watching over me and will be the first to greet me when I join him someday. Close

poem for mama  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
I cant take back my regrets or mistakes
Or make u understand
how my heart aches
Mama we didnt always get along
but it took me till i was older to understand
You werent usually wrong
My mother and I,
were alot alike
Maybe thats why
we didnt always see eye to eye
Maybe thats why
we tended to fight
But as the days pass to years
I dont stop shedding my tears


I dont care what none of ya'll say! I can still miss her. I can still cry. And I dont have to let go! It's my life, and my pain. Close

not 1 day  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
Not a single day goes by that i dont miss my mama. Some nights i cant even go to sleep. Some days i think i wont make it through the day. :( Close

thinkin of you  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
On the 2 yr aniversary of your death we went to cedar point. i started tearing up during the fireworks. prolly cuz u went into the hospital on the 4th of july. i also started crying during the snoopy on ice show...just seemed like something you would have liked. Anyways dont wanna get myself crying to much...my boyfriend is in the other room...dont want him to see me cryjust wanted to let you know not a single day goes by that i dont think about you and miss you. Close

WHAT A TRAGIC LOSS, OF ONE SO BEAUTIFUL!  / SHARI, ANGEL MOM TO YANNICK WHITEHEAD (VISITOR)
IN GENA'S MEMORY;

TIME HAS PASSED AND QUIETLY KEPT
NO NEED FOR REMINDERS
WE WILL NEVER FORGET
DEEP IN OUR HEARTS
YOU WILL ALWAYS STAY
LOVED AND REMEMBERED, EVERY DAY
THEY SAY, TIME HEALS OUR SORROW
AND HELPS US TO FORGET
FOR TIME SO FAR, HAS ONLY PROVEN
HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU YET.

REST IN PEACE, SWEET WOMAN Close

2 years now  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
well its been almost two years...it will be exactly 2 yrs this sat. We are all going to cedar point. i am being dragged i really dont care to go. ill prolly be off by myself anyway. they all like riding rides and i have absolutely no interest in riding any rides...anyways here a poem for my mama


[Smilez (Southstar)] changed a little

Dear mom, I know you're proud your daughters doing good
But Id return it all for just one hug
Your oldest, your son, hes doin good
We all sticking together like we should
Introduce me to the lord when I have no cares
Mad at the world like life ain't fair
I remember you said only the lord I should fear
And with that my stormy weather would be clear
Lord how could you take somethin' so precious
Against our prayers, cares, and strong wishes
I know now ma you livin' through your kids
And if I look at my heart there you is
I can't believe that you're gone you was my best friend
My mother my queen everything that I am
I love you, mom you's my guardian angel
I can't wait to see your pretty face real soon (Rest in peace) Close

hey mama  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
Well its been over three months since i quit smoking and i very rarely ever even think about smoking. I did start a new habit though and its making me fat lmao. oh well one thing at a time. I feel sooooo much better. I'm moving to Lansing in Sept. Hopefully we'll be able to sell kermit. I plan on using the money to start payin off my student loans and moving. Lansing community college has the program i want....radio media technology. So that what i plan on doing in a semester or to. I hope i am making the right decision by moving. I wish you were here to give me some advice :( I figure i dont really have anything really holding me in battle creek anymore. Brad moved away. Dads got his new life. even teisha is moving. Besides ill only be an hour away.  Send some good luck my way mama :)
I sure miss our laughing marathons :( i sure could use one right now. you know....the ones where we would forget why we was laughing but would continue to laugh because the other was, until our stomaches hurt so bad we couldnt physically laugh anymore :) Well i love you mama, and i miss you so much. The day you died i feel like i lost a peice of me Close

WTF / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
everyone lied to me!!! This shit doesnt get any easier!!! How the hell can it get any easier!!! I swear it seems to get harder. Its been almost two years now and i still miss u a million times a day. And what makes it worse is im already starting to forget things. cuz at first i could pretend you were like in Wyoming or somethin....but its finally hitting me two years later that your not coming back!!!! talk about bein in denial a long time! Right now i just wanna scream at you, but i cant...and i know its not your fault. but im still so mad, And everyone else is so happy with there new lives! WHY!!!! i ask that a million times a day. This really sucks!!! i know your happy and i shouldnt be sad...but oh well, i am....I'm selfish and i want you back...i at least wanna be able to hear your voice. But ppl in hell want ice water right? Close

Good news  / Melissa Hutchings (daughter)
Well let me start by saying i quit smoking. Its been 1.5 months since ive had a cigarrette. Your my strength in quitting. I think about how i think "why couldnt she just stop" And i dont wanna be a hypocrite.

Second good new is that dad told me today we'd be finally putting you in the ground.

Sorry i have to go. im crying too hard and giving myself a head ache....i love u mama....and i miss you Close